PRACTICAL!!

Hm.

I called Madam Nur Izlin this morning asking about the practicum.
Guess what she just told me?!

"YOUR PRACTICAL STARTS
NEXT WEEK."

Say WHAT??!!


OH.MY.GOD.
Why NEXT WEEK??

Okay I know I've waited long enough for this (2 months or so) but I didn't expect to receive such news indeed!
I mean, NEXT WEEK?!

GOD.


I've prepared nothing for this.
I still haven't had my name-tag done.
I still haven't decided which house I'll stay during this practicum period.
I don't know what I need, what I'll do.
I haven't even done my laundry.
*okay, not that I'm making any sense with that*

But yes!
Why next week?
Tsk tsk.

Okay, think positive Farhana.
I need to think wise.
Take a deeeeeeeeeeeep breath.


--------------------inhale---------------------

Right.
So I got Sek. Keb. Seksyen 9.
Fitty's former school.
I hope I'll be okay.

What I'm worried most is that I only have ONE partner during the practicum.
Evonne.
Who IS she?

Gahhh.
Okay whatever.
Let's just pray I'll do fine.
Better.
I mean, excellent.
*fingers crossed*


God's will.
Aminnnnn....

NEED A HAIRCUT

My hair is not too short nor long.
Just medium.
And I feel like cutting them off.
Okay, maybe bald isn't the answer.
=P

But really.
I need a haircut.
I just want a fresh look on my face.
Though I cannot do so much with my hair right now, but still.
It's so boring to stick to only one type of haircut.
So yeah, I need something new to my liking.

Maybe an extreme cut like Rihanna?
Or maybe a little bit of wavy touch like Jessica Biel?

I don't know.
I'm just sick of getting a bob.
Even so, I still get a bob cut until today.
Pfft!

Oh, or or, maybe I'll go for this one?

CHIC!
*opss!*

DOES ANYONE KNOW?

SIGH.

My birthday is coming soon but I have no idea what is it going to be like.
So I posted this in my Facebook status;

"I don't see any fancy event going on on my birthday.
Fancy, I mean SPECIAL. ;'( "

And I got quite a number of comments from my friends.
*Well just a few, to be honest*

I know they're just trying to make me feel better. But frankly, I don't feel like celebrating it. I mean, not that I don't want to, but I don't feel like going to. It seems dull lately. I see nothing. I do nothing. I have nothing. And basically, I feel nothing.

DULL.
As in, ZERO.
Nada.

I guess, everyone is just busy.
And I'm just lonely.
I think.
T__T

I JUST NEED TO CRY!

Why oh why,
Everything is so stressful I just want to cry,
I tried so hard but they won't budge,
Now I feel as lonely as a cloud.

I wanted to scream but my voice stuck,
I wanted to bang my head hard but I know I will not,
I feel terrible for having everything all to myself,
I just want nothing but only a lot more care.

It doesn't feel right to always stay calm,
And I feel horrible if I don't give it a d*mn,
I need to end this or else I'll fail,
But I just need MONEY and that is all I aim.

Yes it makes sense now to you I presume,
Though it's worthless now if I just stay put,
So I really need something to make everything right,
And that is all I have but I don't know if it's correct.

I know I'm making a narrow line now but I don't care,
I just need you to know that this is what I feel,
I must seek a new house since everyone is gone,
I cannot pay the rental, well of course, all alone.

The room is super messy thanks to moody me,
I have hairs here and there I refused to sweep,
Used clothes hanging everywhere I know I'm gross,
But please spare a time for me, you'll know why I'm such a foul.

My supposed-to-start-now practicum is nowhere to be heard,
I even haven't got my results until June I just heard,
My head is exploding with anger I know,
Still there is more than that which I need to follow.

The business thing runs okay but it pays little,
If I raise up the rates I know I will suffer,
It is horrifying to be all by yourself,
It is pitiful enough to stand alone with no one's there.

I was born in May and this is the month of joy,
But nay look what I got now just headaches and sorrow,
There will be no cool gifts this year, that too I think of,
What sadden me most is that everything I just can't afford.

I will say I'm okay when you ask me that,
But deep in my heart I am as scattered as dust,
I may look right to you but please do look into,
I just want to cry so please, I really REALLY need you.


P/s: Why isn't there any tears coming out, I'm DEPRESSED now for crying out loud?!!

(T.T)

2004. SAY WHAT??

I just love the colour!
So sad I have to remove them tomorrow.
-.-"

Okay.
So I came across quite a number of so-called old emails in my Yahoo account.
And by saying old, I mean very, VERY old ones.
I wanted to call them "ancient".
But come to think about it, 2004 wasn't so ancient at all.
I mean, people use "ancient" to indicate clothes made by leaves era.
Or during the bones stuck under the nose kind of in-fashion thing.
You know what I mean?
*hehe*


Well thanks to all 4536 unwanted Facebook, Tagged yadayadayada notifications for dragging me there.
My first intention was to clear some space in the email account.
*I hate having unread messages!*

I was scrolling down, and down, and down, and "Baby are you down down down down down."
(okay WTFunny. lol)
Since I am not that kind of person who simply take everything; rather than "Select All" and "Delete", I prefer to select and deselect one by one instead.
(I know... I'm such a genius!)

And to my surprise, I still have my FIRST AND FOREMOST "Welcome to Yahoo!" email dated Dec 11, 2003!
Man that was "ancient"!

HAHAHAHAHA.

So there are several emails from this you-know-who (no no, not Voldemort of course! Haha) when we were (yes, were) still friends.
Best-est, closest friends, that is.

I'm glad that I finally got myself smiling while reading them.
We were AKU-ing KAU-ing in all the 2004 emails and it felt weirdly nice though.
Like we were dragged back to our school-hood life.

And this one is freaking funny!
I laughed hard reading this;
"KALAU MASA SKOOL LEH TAK AKU GI LAWAT KO NGAN MAK CIK AKU. WAKTU FREE JERLAH. BOLEH TAK?"
**Dec 12, 2003**
*We were Form 3!*


Like, SERIOUSLY???
Hahahaha.
Kids.

41 TO 40!

LOL.
I just lost ONE follower!
Hahaha.

Yup, 41 yesterday, 40 today.
*haha. don't know why I found that funny*

Were you bored following a 'passive' blogger now, dear?
Hehe. Sorry for keeping you that long..
But whoever you are, I thank you so very much for the "stay".
Really. And do come again, even as my un-follower!

Peace!

P/s: You give me reason to write something! SWEET! ;)