THE GIRLS

Missing them, and I know exactly why...

If only they were here..

FAREWELL~ *WAVES HAND*

Oh dear, is it the time?


I'm going back to Tapah for good!
Finally.

I have so many things to say but long story short:
*because I haven't yet packed my things and my parents are coming within the next two hours! lol*

Goodbye Shah Alam.

Goodbye Giant Stadium.

Goodbye Perdana.

Goodbye Macik Steamboat.

Goodbye Macik Lauk.

Goodbye Abang Oblong.

Goodbye Kakak Food Court.

Goodbye Abang2 Kopitiam.

Goodbye PAS.

Goodbye SACC Mall.

Goodbye PKNS.

Goodbye Pacik Rapid.

Goodbye Pacik Taxi.

Goodbye LRT.

Goodbye KL.

Goodbye Mid.

Goodbye Signature.

Goodbye friends.




Goodbye everyone.


Thanks for accompanying me for the whole
2 years and 9 months!
All the bittersweet remain in my heart.

and
.
.
.


Good bye BOO.

YUMMY-LICIOUS!

Praise to Allah.

Ta-daaaa!
So, how's the new layout?
Wuhuu!~

*Do you like it? See the poll above? Let me know!*

I got to remind myself that I have these CRUCIAL things I need to jot down here.
*maybe I should hire a typist to write my every-day journal, no?*

• My 22nd Birthday Celebration
• Bucketful of pain and sorrow since last month
  
• Teaching experience at SKS9!

I'll try to make them simple and short.
*let's hope. lol*

'till we meet again!

Chalo, Fezra!
P/s: We're going back to our hometown in just a few hours! Hooray!
*time to make full use of ce'egu's privilege!
SCHOOL HOLIDAYS! haha*

PRACTICAL!!

Hm.

I called Madam Nur Izlin this morning asking about the practicum.
Guess what she just told me?!

"YOUR PRACTICAL STARTS
NEXT WEEK."

Say WHAT??!!


OH.MY.GOD.
Why NEXT WEEK??

Okay I know I've waited long enough for this (2 months or so) but I didn't expect to receive such news indeed!
I mean, NEXT WEEK?!

GOD.


I've prepared nothing for this.
I still haven't had my name-tag done.
I still haven't decided which house I'll stay during this practicum period.
I don't know what I need, what I'll do.
I haven't even done my laundry.
*okay, not that I'm making any sense with that*

But yes!
Why next week?
Tsk tsk.

Okay, think positive Farhana.
I need to think wise.
Take a deeeeeeeeeeeep breath.


--------------------inhale---------------------

Right.
So I got Sek. Keb. Seksyen 9.
Fitty's former school.
I hope I'll be okay.

What I'm worried most is that I only have ONE partner during the practicum.
Evonne.
Who IS she?

Gahhh.
Okay whatever.
Let's just pray I'll do fine.
Better.
I mean, excellent.
*fingers crossed*


God's will.
Aminnnnn....

I JUST NEED TO CRY!

Why oh why,
Everything is so stressful I just want to cry,
I tried so hard but they won't budge,
Now I feel as lonely as a cloud.

I wanted to scream but my voice stuck,
I wanted to bang my head hard but I know I will not,
I feel terrible for having everything all to myself,
I just want nothing but only a lot more care.

It doesn't feel right to always stay calm,
And I feel horrible if I don't give it a d*mn,
I need to end this or else I'll fail,
But I just need MONEY and that is all I aim.

Yes it makes sense now to you I presume,
Though it's worthless now if I just stay put,
So I really need something to make everything right,
And that is all I have but I don't know if it's correct.

I know I'm making a narrow line now but I don't care,
I just need you to know that this is what I feel,
I must seek a new house since everyone is gone,
I cannot pay the rental, well of course, all alone.

The room is super messy thanks to moody me,
I have hairs here and there I refused to sweep,
Used clothes hanging everywhere I know I'm gross,
But please spare a time for me, you'll know why I'm such a foul.

My supposed-to-start-now practicum is nowhere to be heard,
I even haven't got my results until June I just heard,
My head is exploding with anger I know,
Still there is more than that which I need to follow.

The business thing runs okay but it pays little,
If I raise up the rates I know I will suffer,
It is horrifying to be all by yourself,
It is pitiful enough to stand alone with no one's there.

I was born in May and this is the month of joy,
But nay look what I got now just headaches and sorrow,
There will be no cool gifts this year, that too I think of,
What sadden me most is that everything I just can't afford.

I will say I'm okay when you ask me that,
But deep in my heart I am as scattered as dust,
I may look right to you but please do look into,
I just want to cry so please, I really REALLY need you.


P/s: Why isn't there any tears coming out, I'm DEPRESSED now for crying out loud?!!

(T.T)

SPECIAL DEDICATION TO....

"JONI MAKARONI"

Yes, YOU.
Mr. Makaroni

How dare you intern at KLCC!

Byk lagi tempat b'KTM yg muleh di pilih,
di situ jugak engkau pergi.

Ces!
Cescescescescescesces!

Dan CES lagi.

Ye kamu...
Ms. Fitghiyah
Udah2 le tu senyum2 khombing.



=PP


P/s: Cheers to both of you starting December!
Pp/s: Already told Fitghi I'll buy a bino to skodeng you guys (n,n)v

NOR FARAH AZLIN AYUB

(^,^) THANK YOU!!! (^,^)

1pm
(while I was still snoring....)

Ting tong!
*Ugh.. I forgot to change back my SMS tone*

Le'lyn: Ana, are you at home? Do you want some bihun?
Ana_Banne: Oh, sounds nice. OK with me! *WAKE UP you lazy a*s!*
Le'lyn: Alright, I'll go to your house, but later in the evening. Okay?
Ana_Banne: Okie dokie. Thanks! *oohh my comfy pillows and fluffy teddy... mmm..zzz---*

Hurray!
One free brunch for me!

3pm

Le'lyn: Ana, are you already starving? Can you hold it any longer or you can't? Because if not, I'll come, but maybe at around 3.30pm.
Ana_Banne: Oh don't mind. Anytime you like. *yup, still not hungry - am used to this. Hehe*
Le'lyn: Okay, later when I'm there, I'll give you a buzz.

She IS good, isn't she? ;)

4.05pm

Le'lyn: Ana, I'm already in front of your house.
Ana_Banne: Oh alright alright.

And taddaaaaa......

I was thinking of going to a waterfall when I ate this. Yummy!

Well she turned 20 last four days where I am still haven't give her the birthday present due to the lack of money, *Isk isk. Sorry Le'lyn* and today she cooked me bihun??

In fact, not only bihun; dadih and begedil *does that spell that way?* as well! Besides, when I was sick, she boiled me water and made me some milk or a nestum or a nice porridge. She did also give me some lauk-pauk if she has extra. *Oh she's a kitchen expert I tell you* Enough said.

People, although she's still single, unfortunately she's already taken.
*Maybe. Haha*

Am thankful to have a friend like her. Seriously. Frankly say, this is the first time I have a friend so generous, yet a hardworking chef-in-the-kitchen like you, Le'lyn. So thank you so much for the bihun you gave me just now... And the tasty dadih. And the hot, appetizingly begedil. Oh, also the lauk-pauk you used to let me fill my always empty tank *if it's not because of my laziness to walk few meters from home to Giant to get the d*mn food into my mouth!* 'cause at least, you did help me save my money for a day or two. Hehe.

During our Sunway Pyramid blissful shopping day! *Well I did. Haha*

I am all thankful for everything, indeed. You're one good friend and do feed me more often! Hahaha. No, I'm kidding. Thank you so much Le'lyn and Happy Belated 20th Birthday, again!

*which I was planning to wish her as the last person on 16 July, 2009 at 11.59pm ended up wishing her on 17 July, 2009 at 12am! Pfft. What kind of friend I was??*

SHE SAID SORRY!!

............

It was unexpectedly happenned since I had to drag my weak legs along with an absolute insincere heart to attend the session, never mind hundred times of fretting the exact same meaning over and over again just to let go my anger towards what had happenned before.

But, ....really?

Really she said that?

I mean, yes she did!

SHE REALLY SAID IT!

*hahaha*

Well I don't want to make a fuss on that AGAIN; enough that I now feel completely guilty for what I had said about her.

*okay I lied. Maybe a little*

But hey, I know my feelings too.

It was a total crushed the day she treated me like a dopey.

So today she apologized straight on my face and my alter ego melted.

*What? No way! What I meant was my rage sort of slowed down...*

**That's all.**

At least she did, and I feel relieved.

MENTAL KIDS ALERT!!

This is during our TESL Sport's Day.

Well as you can see, we are four cheerful and active children who need paramedics as being too happy in the sense that we managed to escape from participating in any of the games held (except for Myra lah 'cause she was so engrossed with enthusiasm to participate in most of all games) --- well you know Myra; a nice and no-rules-should-be-broken type of girl!
*hahahaha*

WHOOP DEE DOO!!

Except for being unpaid cheerleaders, crazy pictures models and few times Vico drinkers (as if we were too exhausted cheering instead of PARTICIPATING! Haha), I felt heartless for this event. Really. Well it's okay. Just take it as a book-free day then!

(It was held from 3.30pm to 6.15pm. God. I definitely wanted to go back and sweats off my body ASAP!)
Kuang hajaq Le'lyn! *that was spontaneous!* HAHAHA.

SNIPPETS FROM TESL NIGHT

I made a promise, I have to fulfill it.
So here are some snippets from the TESL Night I've been telling you about.
Some of you may have seen these pictures
(cause I did upload them in my Facebook profile).
Never mind though.
Just to let the memory pasted on my own blog too ;)
So take your time scanning!
*you better be in a good way okay...*
hehe.

DATE: May, 16th 2009

VENUE: KLANG EXECUTIVE CLUB
(don't ask me how executive was the EXECUTIVE!)
THEME: SECRET GARDEN
MENU: CHINESE FOOD
THOUGHTS: Love to see all the beautiful dresses everyone's wearing, though the food aren't that satisfying~

They are listed accordingly to the time they're captured. Well... Sort of.
(I did change the positions a bit so it will look nicer. A perfectionist. What can I say. Haha).
So sorry for the unorganized vertical-and-horizontal shapes.
*Pfft! What a bad command I have! But I know you understand. So HIGH FIVE!!*
Oh yea, we went out Karaoke-ing at The Curve after that.
(hehe)